I wish everyone didn't have to have a single gender, or one at all. That could possibly make hundreds of people's lives easier. Although I'm proud of who I am, at times it definitely gets complicated and my identity comes into question.

It's been 3 years since I've been out and I hadn't come out in a positive way. My parents had found conversations between myself and my girlfriend at the time. Of course that turned into a disaster and I had been kicked out for a while. A few months later they took me back, then sent me out again. Then back and fourth for 3 years. It has been a mess, not just of worrying about where you're going to stay next but with the words that are said in between all that. My family being catholic oriented don't believe in same gender relationships I get told daily how "horrible" I am or how "disgusting" I am. Or how I should "start dressing like a girl because I am one". All by my own family. The extent of it all wont be told but I'm sure you can imagine it. Right now is extremely complicated. No one will accept me back home and I'm going from place to place, from friends' houses or wherever I can find a place to sleep. I'm hoping eventually something positive will happen but for now I can only wish.

Although, it's not just with family, every day occurrences around my city can be hell.

Sometimes walking down the street is awkward. With getting asked "wait, you're a girl?" or being constantly stared at and given dirty looks from complete strangers while holding my girlfriend's hand. Things no one should worry about, like even going to public washrooms. The instant I step into the Women's washroom I start receiving glares. Yes I am in fact a female just like you, yes I have the same parts, but no I do not prefer to dress in a feminine way nor do I prefer to look like one in general. I actually fear using public washrooms because I hate being questioned. Just being called "sir" and once I start talking hearing "oh, I'm sorry I didn't know you were a girl" and a lengthy apology about not knowing my gender afterwards can really burst my bubble.

I remember high-school, ha. Hearing daily either the words "queer, faggot, dyke" or whatever could possibly float into these kids heads. I once got into a long drawn out fight at my old school for being gay. 4 guys after my girlfriend and I just because they didn't like what they saw. And what did the school do? Absolutely nothing. Glad I am human to you. Didn't know lesbians had any less rights than straights.

Because of what I had gone through I had realized that it isn't easy to go through something like coming out, alone. So I created a group on Facebook called "Teens Against Homophobia" to help support any other's who just need someone to talk to.

Everyone is different but these are the daily occurrences in my life. I decided to share some and if someone else is going through the same thing they know that they're not the only ones.